how to deal

i feel like everytime i watch the news or read anything on the internet i always end up reading about someone who has lost a child or that a child has died by abuse or drowning or some sort of accident. i almost always get a little teary eyed because a) i am still quite emotional post-baby and b) because i think that losing one of my own children would be so devastating.

so here is my question: how do people deal with the loss of a child? especially when the death is unexpected (not that it makes is any easier when it is expected)?

i honestly don't know if i could ever recover if it were one of my children.

so here is my prayer: father in heaven, i am ready to have trials and to learn from them, but please review my list of earthly trials and if one of them is "deal with the loss of a child", please cross it off. i don't want to do it. please.

amen.